Why I have learned not to believe everything I think and feel is real. What sucks is the insane number of people that attack me for saying I think this way. Every day somebody will go off on me because they hear something I say about myself as a criticism of them. Worse, when I point out what I’m saying is about me, not them it becomes time to criticize me in a way that had I actually done it would have caused an instant melt down. And people wonder why I spend most of my time alone.